Friday, March 29, 2013

Sunshine Is Waiting For You!!

It has been awhile since I blogged. Let me re-introduce myself....
I am Chevie and I live with anorexia. I am ok with that, at least I am living. I have seen the ugliest side of this disease and I fought it and by the grace of God and with amazing people I have learned to live. I am blessed!!

I first said, "I want to help people who suffer with eating disorders." I soon realized, based on my own experience that when people said they wanted to "help" me, I automatically shut them out. To have someone help me, was admitting that I had this huge problem. I knew that I did, but I did not want to fully admit it. People around me knew I was suffering, yet I took it as judging. It is funny how "ED" can twist and obscure things. I now just want to reach people. The more I talk about living a good life with"ED" the more people will see that it is possible. Not everyone will grasp it or believe it because "ED" is so strong in their life. I am a believer that "ED" is a part of your life forever, however "he" does not have to control every thought, every meal; I learned to take back my life and to not let "him" have near as much power.

I LOVE this ... Don't confuse your path with your destination.
This is so true. My path has brought me to places and people that I never thought I deserved. Happiness that I never thought I would find. Love that I never dreamed would be this good. Contentment with myself that I thought was impossible.

But more importantly ... Just because its stormy now doesn't mean that you aren’t headed for sunshine.
I know this first hand.  I was in the storm for a very long time and there are still days where it sprinkles and I have to pull out my umbrella.  That's ok.  It is not taking a step back, it is just staying in the same spot I am already in. 
If you are in a storm right now, remember that there is sunshine ahead. Do not give up. Do not lose hope. Do not forget that you are worth much more than what "ED" has for you right now.

<3 always always